Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Chapter V: You’re an Honor student? And so...?

Finishing my first grade elementary was quite good. My inhibitions have been covered up by the fact that I learned about my potentials. I rarely hear about the good things that I have done. There had been zero appreciation for every accomplishment that I make. It has been understatement of me that I should live without being noticed.

My father had been converted to a new religion. They were born again, according to a tag line. I was in 2nd grade that time. From the very beginning this tag line entered into my senses, persecutions had been usual. People did not accept the fact that I am a member of that certain congregation. I wished for their happiness and success while they curse me to die. I prayed for their forgiveness while they pushes me and laughed at me. I shared words of wisdom and friendship with them when they don’t accept it. It was a nice change. This was the reality then. The right to have freedom in religion was underscored by the prejudice people have in their minds. Well, it had been the case from then on.

The whole family have been in the religion and we are happy to be in it. Even my grandmother who had been a strong catholic fanatic then had also change. My grandmother would even try to go to our local church even if she feels bad about her health. She tried many kinds of alternative medicine just to cure her sickness but nothing seems to give her the results she wanted. My grandmother had been my inspiration through and through. Even though we haven’t talked that much I really can’t forget her. I often disregard her because of her age. I remember the times when I always step on her beautifully made up toe nails. She would call me in her slow, deep, harsh voice, “Greje”. She often tells me about the way the lived in the past.

A bright same old, typical morning welcomed me that day. The sun was shining bright. All seems to be right. I didn’t notice my mother’s voice right inside that room that used to ignore. What I did notice is the cold wind coming out from that room. It seems to hug me like someone I know before. It made me so tensed that I couldn’t move my feet to trod on that certain direction where I heard the voice of a weeping lady. It was too late for me to know that sad news. I gently trod my feet towards that room and a vivid picture of an old lady lying in her bed with no life struck me. I don’t what to do that time. I didn’t know what emotion I should act that moment. I don’t know if I should cry or what. All the picture tells me is the fact that the person whom I’m annoyed with had been gone for good.

Several days passed, varied things have come into play. The whole house was filled with a lot of people visiting the corpse of my lola. Then I had the opportunity of meeting a lot of people from different parts of the country. My relatives from Manila and Leyte whom I never knew before came to visit. All of them coming into the scene with different emotions: My uncle was crying when he came. My aunt was calm when she arrived. Some were happy, while some were not that emotional at all. All of these giving me the fact that people such as them really loves my grandmother.

When my grand mother was buried, all of the memories have come back. They all reminded me of the old person whom I was annoyed with. Then a realization told me that we remember the value of the person when he or she is already gone.

I was a bout to finish my second grade when these events have happened. The school year was about to end. The teacher announced who were in the top ten of the class. Our teacher told me that I was on top of it. I was so excited to go home and tell my parents about it. I was running for joy as I come home. The whole room was so dark. On a table is my father doing something. My mother was in the kitchen cooking our meal. I greeted them good morning showed them my card. As if unnoticed they continued doing what they were doing before I came home. I left the card let on the table. I was about to tell them about the news when our neighbor who was then a teacher at our school came. “Oh, Greje is such a brilliant boy he is the first honor on the list. She showed the program of activities to them.” says our neighbor. “Oh, you should be ready for tomorrow”, she added. My mother got excited about it and cheered me up.

When we were about to go to our school trouble came. An argument about me has sprout out. My father didn’t like me getting the honor. It was my perception when he told me those words saying, “Pa-honor honor man hine…..” I was so disappointed about it. It broke my heart in two. I don’t know if it was my fault to earn an honor. I am not even sure if I should be happy about it. Will I think for it as a complement? Or a liability?

From that day on, I started to make it as a challenge. I started earning honors from grade 2 till grade 6.

When I reached grade six, I was third honors for the whole batch. It has been a great competition as we competing with people from a Special class. I was the only person coming from a regular class outside the special program but I aced all of the challenges and all of them were shocked to know that someone coming from a regular class would come out to be an honor student.

The following tells you about my years in elementary:

Grade

Section

Honors

1

5

None

2

4

First honors

3

3

Second honors

4

SPED C

First Honors

5

SPED B (Section 1)

First Honors

6

SPED A

Third Honors

Chapter VII: Eighty Five

I really hate number 85. It really is the grade that I have to maintain all the time. Since high school, my teachers would challenge me to maintain that grade. It’s the least that we should have in every subject. Once we already have it, we can no longer have the chance to receive the honors. It really is so difficult to attain. Everyone would work hard just to refrain from getting that grade. Well, I never did get that certain grade. I worked hard for me not to get them.

One of my favorite subjects is History. I always memorize and comprehend each and every word that the book would suggest. I always top in our exams in history. I never thought that I would have such grade in that subject. For me it’s the easiest subject. Nevertheless it is the most ignored subject of all. I never thought that I will have a problem with it. Our teacher then was so strict. Our attendance, attitude, and other assignments were strictly marked. It wasn’t a treat at all for me.

Our professor at the end of the first quarter told me that I had 84 in my card. I won’t be included in the list of honors therefore. I was so disappointed. I couldn’t believe I’m already out of the list. Out of depression, I did not work well on my subjects. I was so fed up and found no purpose of studying for there will be no rewards to be given anymore.

It was too late of me to know that it wasn’t the grade that was recorded on my card. I have to recover all my dignity and therefore study well. At the end of the semester, I did well. I topped the exams. I learned a lesson on a hard way. It was too late for me but I did my best. It is where I started to be mindful of my actions. Now, I don’t belittle my other subjects.

Now I really love number 85. I still have to maintain the same grade with my college GPA. I really have to. It is my scholarship that is at stake, so work very hard just to attain this goal.

Chapter VIII: High School Graduation

All are dressed in white clothes, holding a mortar on my left hand, we fall in line. I was with my old shoes. The ribbon on my clothes were dangling as if they were about to fall. People started to crowd. Parents of my classmates started to fall in line too. They were all happy. My classmates posed for shots. Sparkle of glitters shine on their faces as their faces were covered by make up. The whole atmosphere was filled with the spirit of no ending joy.

I was on the second row at the second column. On my line are my classmates arranged in alphabetical order. My classmates are with their parents. As the music of the famous theme for graduation fills the air, students started to walk in front towards the gym. It was so painful to me while my classmates walk through the isle of the gym with their parents. I was the only one who walked without anyone to accompany me.

We sat in front of the stage. Knowing that after all of this ceremony, we are officially off the campus, the contract between SSU and the students would finally end. After this event we are no longer the responsibility of our school. I started to cry when the theme have finished playing. The whole atmosphere has been colder than even before.

Our advisor started to whisper some words into my mouth to ask me if my parent is within the crowd. I started to look from left to right. I couldn’t find anyone of my parents. When my name was called by the mater of ceremonies, I stood up, looked as if I was trying to find someone, and found someone standing behind the throng of women. I went up the stage and wait for a medal to be wrapped around my neck. I was so glad to have the medal, though I wasn’t in with the honors no one had ever surpassed my award in Science. I am really happy about it. I was so proud of it.

As the ceremonies end, the question of what ifs played into my mind. What if I studied well/ what if I did not experience prejudice? What if I was the person that I used to be? What if I did not slack? What if I wasn’t rebellious? Will I be wearing more than one medal? Will I be happier? All have been a question of what ifs.

Epilogue

Text Box: “These accounts about myself are just a portion of what I really want to share with you. I want to share more stories about myself and how I feel about the events that have shaped me but time is really rare for me to spare with. Maybe for the next few years I will be able to develop more them into writing. Only time will tell. For now this will be the account of who I am, The memoirs of being me, the memoirs of being Greje.

103 ways to say THAT you are working in a Call Center

(Wag ko sana danasin ang lahat ng ito)

1. dahil halos di na kayo nagkikita ng nanay at tatay mo, ang tawag na nila sayo ay "boarder" at sinisingil ka na nila sa upa mo.

2. pag sasagot ka ng telepono, lagi na lang may opening spiel...example:*toot* .... thank you for calling (the company) this is (your name) how may i help you?

3. eksperto ka na sa power nap, yung mga 15mins break nyo, itinutulog mo na lang para fresh pagkacalls uli, mya na yung 1 hour nap.

4. di mo na alam bumiyahe pag may araw, nalilito ka bakit andaming tao,at bakit di na dumadaan ang dyip dun sa mga kalsada na 1 way.

5. marami ka nang naiipong jacket... nakakahiya naman kung pare-pareho jacket mo araw-araw at super ginaw naman pag wala.

6. sanay kang maglakad-lakad ng nakamedyas.

7. ang tawag mo sa mga friends mo...dude, bro, coach,tl, sup.

8. di na dugo ang dumadaloy sayo... kape!

9. finefake mo na wag maging "slang" pag nagbabayad ka sa tindahan o kaya sa jeep para wag akalain na pasosyal ka... masama pa, mas panget pakinggan.

10. tadaaaaa! nagsasalita ka sa pagtulog mo, pati calls mo napapanaginipan mo.

11. pumuputi ka na dahil di ka na naaarawan.

12. sanay ka nang matulog kahit maingay sa loob at labas ng bahay nyo.

13. kinalimutan ka na ng mga kaibigan mo dahil existing ka lang pag tulog na sila.

14. sanay ka na sa mga prank callers at mga death treats na nakasulat lang... *sa dami ba naman ng ma-encounter mong ganito gabi-gabi sa trabaho eh**

15. di ka na sanay sa traffic. papasok at pauwi sa trabaho walang traffic.

16. di na tama ang oras ng pagkain mo. breakfast mo ay hapunan na. lunch mo sa madaling araw. dinner mo pag uwi mo sa umaga.

17. lahat ng kasabay mo sa jeep pag papasok ka, pagod na. ikaw lang ang bagong ligo at bagong gel.

18. maski sa bahay, mabilis kang kumain.

19. hindi ka na kilala ng aso nyo

20. ayaw mo na mag-jeep. kailangan taxi or kaya aircon na bus.

21. wala ka nang alam na balita.

22. nahihiya kang magpunta sa mga reunion lalo na't alam mong successful lahat ng ka-batch mo.

23. sasabihin mo field ng trabaho mo IT, di call center.

24. nasusuka ka na pag nakita mo ang pc sa bahay nyo..

25. sasabihin mong tech support engineer ka, pero rep ka lang..

26. pag payday... olats lahat sweldo ng mga kaklase mong board passer. (8k per month lang sila) isang kinsenas mo na yun..:P

27. pag day off mo na lang ikaw nakakapaanood ng noon time show!

28. hindi mo na kilala ang mga bagong artista.

29. hindi mo na alam itsura ng mall...

30. di ka na maebs sa bahay, sanay ka na sa cr ng 6th floor or ibang floor.

31. madalas kulang gamit mo sa bahay dahil nasa locker

32. ayaw mo nang pumasok sa internet cafe!

33. alam mo kung sino si Avaya

34. sanay ka nang pumasok ng bagong gising... kakabangon lang galing sleeping lounge.

35. maglo-lock ka ng pc kahit sa bahay na. pag pindot mo ng CTRL + ALT+ DEL iba ang lalabas.

36. sanay ka ng kumain sa harap ng pc mo kahit nsa bahay.

37. papasok ka sa ofc na nka-jeans, tshirt and cap astig!)

38. mas malaki sweldo mo sa mga ka-batch mo, nagkakanda-kuba na sila sa trabaho nila

39. puro ka-age mo mga ka-opisina mo, walang old maids and DOMs!!

40. mabilis ka ng mag pabili ng corn bits at chicharon sa ermats mo...

41. nakapanood ka na ng rally sa Ayala

42. pag nakakarinig ka ng Kaching!!! akala mo may mail ka na dumating. hehe

43. nakita mo na lahat ng klase ng vendo machine

44. dito sa opisina mo nararanasan na napakabagal ng oras!

45. lahat na ng rason para umabsent nagawa mo na

46. sanay ka na makarinig ng napakalakas na pag singa ng sipon.

47. marami ka ng naipon na microwavable container

48. marami kang ketchup packs galing mcdo at jollibee

49. pag nagkukwento ka sa mga barkada jargon lahat. di nila maintindihan ang ibig sabihin ng ticket..

50. hindi ka na sanay umakyat ng hagdan

51. pag gumagamit ka ng cr,, di ka na nagpa-flush.. kc akala mo kusa na lulubog ebs mo.

52. sawa ka na internet kasi sa trabaho panay ang browsing..

53. during office hours, hindi ka lalabas ng building ng walang dalang relo. baka ma-over break.

54. akala mo may sarili kang locker sa bahay nyo.

55. marunong ka na makipagsagutan at makipagbarahan ng english

56. sanay ka ng magyosi o umidlip pag alas dos at alas kwatro ng umaga

57. dito ka na makakakita ng gf, bf, or asawa. wala ka ng time maghanap sa labas.

58. pag may problema ka sa pc mo, una mong ginagawa ay clear cache at cookies.

59. nanghihingi ka pa ng baon sa nanay mo kahit mas malaki sweldo mo sa kanya..

60. nang ho-hoard ka na din ng tissue sa bahay

61. kala mo libre ang kape sa select...

62. libre parking mo sa building, klasmeyts mo nagbabayad araw-araw ng parking.

63. pag nag cr ka...sanay ka na sa gripo na automatic at toilet bowl...

64. nakaipon ka na ng mouse ball sa bahay

65. nagulat ka ng masabi mo ang opening spiel mo habang nagbabayad sa jeep

66. naka id ka pa kahit nasa jeep

67. kaya mong tiisin na hindi palitan ang damit mo ng 16 hours

68. pagtinanong ng mga ka tropa mo kung ano ang sinusupport mo... sabihin mo msn.com (hahahaha!) kasi pag sinabi mong passport, hindi nila alam yun.

69. mas sanay ka na mag Ctrl+C & Ctrl+V at nahihiya ka na ngayon mo lang nalaman yun.

70. madalas mo harangin ang mga calls

71. Nasanay ka nang may katabing TL na hindi umuuwi. pagpasok mo nandun na. pag-uwi mo nandun pa rin.

72. kahit may malaki kayong speaker sa bahay gusto mo pa din naka-earphones!

73. gusto mo nang lumipat sa makati

74. nung pinasok ng akyat bahay ang bahay nyo, nagsisigaw ka ng HACKER!!! HACKER!!!

75. minumura mo pag nakatalikod kahit sinong amerikano na makita mo. *yan ung kausap ko kanina!!!**

76. pag tinatamad ka tumanggap ng tawag, matapang ka na at alam mo na ang gagawin:

77. puro kalyo na ang wrist at daliri mo

78. sanay ka nang makipag-usap sa telepono sa bahay kahit malakas ang TV. sa office parang limang TV ang nakatapat sayo habang may kausap.

79. pumasok ka na ng puyat, lasing at gutom

80. may picture ka ng nakasuot ng headset

81. sanay ka nang matulog ng dilat ang mata. hindi pwede pahuli.

82. lahat ng style ng pagtulog maiisip mo.

83. lahat ng kaibigan mo may christmas vacation ikaw wala

84. mas gusto mo na mag warm transfer sa ibang department para makatulog ka habang naka-mute at nakikinig sa usapan nila

85. yung ex mo may kasama ng iba

86. lahat ng holiday pumapasok ka kasi double pay malaki ang bayad.

87. d2 ka na sa opisina nakakabili lahat ng gamit mo: kwintas, sabon, shampoo, tocino, longganisa, hikaw, magazine, aso, libro, tshirt, prepaid card, eload, dvd, vcd, yema, corn bits...

88. d2 ka na nasanay kumain ng pagkain na luto sa microwave

89. palaging matabang ang kape sa office

90. imposibleng hindi ka pa nakatanggap ng memo

91. gusto mo na din bumili ng water dispenser kasi pitsel lang ang nasa bahay nyo.

92. nakakausap ka na ng pilipino sa ibang bansa

93. dami mo na naiipon na stirrer (red) galing starbucks kakabili ng kape.

94. nasanay ka nang mgpadeliver ng pagkain.

95. nakakita ka ng artista na nagbebenta ng pagkain sa pantry.

96. dito ka lang makakakita ng pinagsama-samang tinda na: medyas, vitamins, christmas lights, cologne. yosi, siomai at lahat ng klase ng pagkain, relos, kalendaryo, stuff toys, make up, kikay kit, deodorant, kwintas, sasakyan, camera, video, audio, foot spa , milk spa, bags wallet, sinturon, mamon, hamon...

97. d2 ka na expose sa tapa king, zuppa, yellow cab, jugnos, bermuda hotel's pancit canton, wendy's. north park, starbucks

98. di mo maenjoy christmas party kasi kaylangan mo bumalik sa office dahil may pasok ka pa.

99. ice tea ka lang, mga kasama mo.. beer!!!

100. may bago kang damit kada sweldo dahil takot ka makarinig nanaman na paulit-ulit ang suot mo.

101. Lahat ng kaibigan mo kinakahiya at minamaliit nila ang ginagawa mo... Pero pag dating sa araw ng sweldo nagpapalibre sayo.



102. Lahat ng nanglalait sayo na sa call center ka nag tratrabaho, ngayon nakikita mo sa lobby na nag-aapply.



103. Eto na ang tinuturing mong Buhay!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Ako at ang Mahiwagang headset




Ang aking mahiwagang headset
ang kasa-kasama sa tuwi-tuwina.

Ito ang aking kaibigan sa araw-araw.
anu na lang kaya ang mangyayari pag ikaw ay nawala.
anu na lan g ang sasabihin ko kay julia.
anu na lang ang aking gagawin kung ikaw ay wala

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Opening Speil


"Kailangan Pa Bang Imemorize yan?"

Nung nagsisimula pa lang nga ako, talagang super paghahanda ako sa pagpronounce at pad-articulate ng opening speil na ko. Todo emote at grabe ang tutok ko sa salamin sa kakapraktis. Nababaligtad pa nga ata ang aking dila dahil medyo malatounge twister pa ang effect ng speil ng comapany na inirerepresent ko.

Naging habit na ang pagsasambit ng walang kasawa-sawang script na ito. hanggang sa panaginip at mga bangungot kasa-kasama ko ang banggiting ito. Everytime na may maririnig kang kaching-kaching, biglang lalabas ang mga natural reflexes mo at biglang masasabi mo " Thank You For calling t*t T*t. How may I help You?" na may boses na namimistulang walang sakit, walang problema at mainit na tumatanggap sa kung sino mang makakausap mong hindi mo namna kakilala.

Dito nagsisimula ang usapan. Sa pagkakataon o kahit di ka pa man nagsisismulang banggitin iyong paboritong script (Opening Speil) na karaniwang sinasambit sa panimula ng tawag ay bigla ka nang sisigawan ng Kanong nasa kabilang linya. Pagkahaba-habang serye ng litanya ng mga kaartehan nalalaman, mga reklamo na walang kupas at pare-pareho, at lahat ng uri ng mga pagbabanta ang maririnig mo sa kanya. Ang pagmumura nilang walang wagas sa kabanalan at panghahamon at insultong napakainosente ang nagsisilbing musika sa iyong mga tainga.

Sa loob-loob mo hindi ka nalang sana nagpasalamat sa pagtawag nila o di kaya ay hindi ka na lang sana nagtanong kung ano ang maitutulong mo sa kanila kung mumurahin ka lang ng kausap mo sa kabilang linya.

Oo sa kabila ng pagmamagandang loob na tulungan mo sila ay minumura ka pa nla. Hindi ka rin naman makapagmura pabalkik dahil nasa kabilang linya naman ang mga tagapagtiktik satawag mo, mga nagwa-wiretap at nag-oobserba sa bawat o piling mga tawag na iyong natatanggap.Magkukunwari ka namang nakangiti kahit buwesit na buwesit ka na. Kunwaring nakangiti ka pa na sinisigawan ka nila. Habang Si Kustomer ay naglilitanya dagli monamang pipindutin ang Mute at saka ka naman Magmumura sa Kausap sa mga katangahang nagawa nya. Dito mo naman nailalabas ang Tensyon sa isipan. Napakataas na uri ng kaplastikan at pagkukunwari mo namang sasabihin sa kahuli-hulihang bahagi ng inyong usapan na ikaw ay nagpapasalamat sa kanilang pagtawag. Pagkatapos ng buong usapan pipindutin ang mute at saka ka mgamumura sa harap ng Avaya na wala namang kinalaman sa inyong usapan. Biglang Tutunog ang Prompt ng pagdating ng Susunod na tawag. Biglang Pipindutin ang mute. Magpapalit ng mukha, Mula sa galit at naiinis na emosyon patungo sa isang mapagkumbaba at propesyonal upang sambitin na naman ang walang kasawa-sawang Opening Speil.